Monday 1 October 2018

Hello October | 2018

How are we already in October this year? It feels like Christmas 2017 was only yesterday! September has been a hard long month and my little bit of light at the end of the dark tunnel I was in for months dimmed out and it still felt like I was in there, even now, my mental health has been affected quite badly last month too but I have decided that I'm going to be brave and share what's been happening with everyone.

September was a really hard month for me, the heartbreaking thought of never being able to see my Nan again set in and I finally plucked up the courage to visit her grave for the first time. My Nan's and my beautiful cat Mitzi was sadly put down as she had cancer and numerous tumours in her body, and as well as dealing with all of this, my husband Phil and I went through our own heartbreak. My mental health took a bad downward spiral and for a while there I couldn't see how I was going to be able to get on with my life in general. I didn't exactly want to end my own life but there were times when if someone would have held a gun to my head I wouldn't have exactly begged for my life either, it was a hard month.

Thankfully towards the end of the month, I have started to see a little better and see a light in my deep dark tunnel. I've thrown myself back into blogging and taking care of our home, we have only lived here for six months so we feel like our home is starting to come together properly and we are making big plans for it. Life is starting to feel like things are going to be okay again - for now.

Goals For October

Blogging: I want to make a goal to myself that when things are bad in life, instead of running away from blogging and social media encase I get judged, to actually share everything as things aren't always wonderful in everyone's life all of the time and things can get bad and dark sometimes. I need to remind myself of that.

Bake: I really want to spend some time baking this month and making some yummy vegan treats.

Horror Movies: Since it's October I want to watch as many horror movies as possible, maybe even one a day! Does anyone know if there is a thing (like a list or such) to watch a horror or spooky movie every day for October? If not, there should be.

How was your September? What are your plans and goals for October?
Leave me a comment below and let me know...

With love, Alisha Valerie. x


  1. I'm sorry September was so tough for you, I hope this month is better <3
    I'm hoping to do some more baking this month too!
    Hels xx

  2. I'm so sorry that Mitzi was put down! I'm sending you all the love in the world angel.

    Love, Amie ❤
    The Curvaceous Vegan

  3. Sharing everything that's on your mind can help and be cathartic for us. Sorry that all of that happened to you, you've been going through an awful time. Big love to you.

    Amy |

  4. Hopefully October will be a better month - I want to bake more too x

  5. Plenty of horror movies are on my list too!

  6. Hope October is a better month for you lovely xx

  7. Sorry to hear September was rough. It wasn't my best month either tbh. Here's to a brighter October!


  8. ooh there definitely should be a spooky film list just like the 25 days of Christmas one! :)

  9. Ah i am so sorry!! What a loss!

  10. blogging can really help with my mental health as well, everyone I've met really is so uplifting and sweet!

  11. Spending more time baking this month is one of my goals too! First up is millionaire Carmel shortbread 😋

  12. I hope you have a better October xx

  13. So sorry to hear you didn't have a good September. I hope October is looking up for you and that it will be a good month. Best of luck with your goals. I also want to do some baking and discover more vegan recipes.

  14. Your blogging goal is literally mine. I haven’t blogged in a while and I keep meaning to sit and write one

    Tasha x

  15. Sorry to hear you had such a sad month.