AD | Hello my lovelies, happy Friday, I hope that you all are having a wonderful end to your week and start to your weekend! I cannot believe that it's only the fifth month of the year is only here now, being stuck on lockdown indoors still has really been getting to me.
Other than the one post explaining why I was self-isolating from the very beginning of all this scary madness, I haven't spoken much about the virus on my website yet and to be honest, that's because I wasn't sure how I was feeling about it all. Until this weekend. This past weekend really hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm a total home-bird, I adore being at home all of the time and only going out once a month for our 'big shop' and as I'm a social media influencer I'm used to being at home all of the time so it wasn't actually getting to me staying home that much as if I'm really honest so I thought that not a lot changed for me.
But as the month went on I was really feeling uneasy and rather 'down in the dumps' as my Nan would say. What has got to me the most this month was not being able to go and put flowers on my Nans grave. It really broke my heart this month not being able to go and visit where my Nan is laid to rest. Thankfully my therapist has been on hand and has really been helping me deal with all of things feelings.
Like everyone else we started April in lockdown enjoying the sunshine, thankfully we have huge gardens around our home and our back garden needed some sorting out as there were leaves everywhere so we spent some time doing that, putting a shed up and pretty much just getting our garden ready for the summertime. If you've followed me for a while then you'll know that sorting out our gardens and buying a new shed has been something that we've wanted for a little over two years now so it felt good to scratch that goal off our bucket list.
On Friday 10th April, my husband and I celebrated what would have been out little girls sixth birthday. It was a very heartbreakingly sad day but Phil and I watched Disney movies and snuggled on the sofa. Then on Monday 13th April, we celebrated my best friends birthday and as he is on lockdown in our home too we celebrated by watching a movie in 3D and was kindly gifted a discount code for Just Eat*.
Towards the end of the month, I came down with an awful "something" and I say something because I have no clue what happened, but I was bed-bound for three days. I'm so thankful that I didn't have the horrible virus but whatever it was that I did have really scared me as my lungs where hurting and I was shaking and such. Being unwell with everything going on in the world was really scary but after three days I felt back to normal and was so much better. It's made me appreciate my health so much more.
I'm ending April on a bit of a high, I've gotten into the swing of things and have put together things to do on days where I feel lost or "down in the dumps". I've come to terms with the fact that we all aren't one hundred per cent sure of when we are all going to be able to go out into the world. For now, I'm going to enjoy this time as much as possible and be safe at home.
How was your April? How are you coping with lockdown? What are your plans for May? I'd love to know your views and thoughts so please let me know by leaving me a little comment of love below? Sending you all so much love for a wonderful day x
With love, Alisha Valerie. x